Sober

hard to find social interaction that isn't uncontrollably sodden with alcohol. sobriety must be frightening - it makes one alert, it makes one accountable. it makes moron conversation sound moronic. easy, then, the languid excesses of inebriation.

what i wrote off as 'normal' eight years ago, now seems repugnant beyond endurance - people with bad skin teeth hair, impoverished insides, carelessly-shared bodies. ugly in, ugly out. these days are spent seeking shards of beauty. clear-eyed hobbits instead of ghastly orcs.